These are random musings of my life journey, the people, animals, places, and events which have woven, and continue to weave, a tapestry that is me. We all know there is no real destination, only the ongoing experiences which blend together, creating the trail. Each step gives a glimpse of what is to come, without allowing me to see the end result. It is exciting. I have a home base that is mine, that gives me a place to rest. This is it. This is where my heart is, no matter where I journey...................

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Moving on ....

Moving ahead. Yes, we are all here, despite the rumors.  Silly stuff.  But I'm feeling very positive about the days ahead for a lot of reasons. New beginnings abound!  Yay, us!!

Part of my Healing Touch studies includes a lot of reading. I'm currently reading a book about journaling. I've rather lost my zest and focus for that in recent times. I journal occasionally, but I'd like to get back that zest, as well as expand it for the benefits of emotional and spiritual growth. This book is borrowed from my mentor, and I am loving it. I've been reduced to tears on several occasions, and I have only begun to read it!

The thing is, there are "assignments" as you read, many of them poetry. I figuratively rolled my eyes at seeing the first one. Poetry has always been my most important and frequent expression of my thoughts and feelings, but I've been unable (uninspired, perhaps?) to write in a long time. Part of my problem is that the two things that inspired my writing were being in love and being very sad. Just haven't been strongly either place. I guess I'm joyfully single! But these assignments have been dynamic for me, encouraging my writing, poems and other forms of expression, too.

And there are other forms of expression that are encouraged in the book, also. Some I've known about but not tried, others are new to me and exciting. I've begun using several of these already. One of the idea is to use the journal as a scrapbook at times, pasting or taping things that strike you during the day, a comic strip, a ticket stub, a leaf. The idea is that you don't even have to write about it because just seeing the ticket stub will stir up the memories of taking the (grand)children to the zoo or the leaf will always remind you of the hike up the mountain with friends.

I think sometimes (often?) we don't journal because we think our own ideas are drivel or too painful or too personal. Poppycock!! Drivel? Never. I've opened old journals and been astounded that my whining from ten years before is still my whining of today, so I took action. Painful? Sure, but it has given me guideposts and mile markers of my journey, and I can see my positive changes. Personal? Perhaps, but I got to know my grandparents through their journals. Even one line entries were helpful, and when I looked at some entries, I realized that they weren't the stoic figures I'd known as a wee one, but real people with emotions. Wow! I hope my grands know that about me. I try to be less stoic than my grandparents were, but it's hard to know what a child interprets.

In past years, I already have written my memoirs for my kids and grandkids. I'm realizing I probably need to go back and reread parts of that, as I know that parts of it are flat, simple recounting of facts without the emotional part. At the time I wrote it, emotions weren't safe for me to express. Now that I am past that, I should go back and make the story live.

Well, enough. I need to get busy and do some house cleaning and be ready for my daughter and her kids to visit next week. Woo hoo!! I'm very happy and looking forward to the visit! Much to do!  Isn't it interesting how we do extra cleaning, organizing, etc. when people are coming to visit, even though it is mostly fine to have them in without it? We are silly creatures, aren't we? But it is what it is, and I gotta get it done.

Moving ahead to a fabulous time ahead for us all!  Be happy!!




8 comments:

  1. You write so beautifully and touch my heart every time I visit you. (Which, whether I leave a comment or not, is often!)Thank you for, well, for being you.
    Love,
    Sue

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  2. Oh, thank you, Sue. I can say the same back to you about frequent visits, even without comments. I'm always happy to know my words have touched people. :) Love back.

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  3. i tried to get back into journaling recently by buying a pretty new journal that I thought would inspire me. my new lab puppy ate it as he has most things he encounters.

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    1. ................ Perhaps the puppy is getting in touch with [drum roll] his inner self!!!!!!!

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  4. I journal in spurts and am disappointed in myself when I am not more consistent. My journals are important to me as they are where I can give voice to my emotions.

    Merry Christmas.

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    1. I agree, RET. Sometimes it is a release, and others, it is very burdensome. I suspect that is when most of us stop or become lax about it. It's hard to push into something when it is painful, yet that is the most important time to do so. The other time I've stopped is when I'm simply recounting facts, not delving into the underling grist.

      Merry Christmas to you, also. :)

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  5. Enjoy your family, they are the true gifts!! Merry Christmas!

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    1. Yes, indeed, they are, MM. Merry Christmas to you, too.

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If you have something to say about it, just stick out your thumb, and I'll slow down so you can hop aboard! But hang on, 'cause I'm movin' on down the road!!! No time to waste!!!