These are random musings of my life journey, the people, animals, places, and events which have woven, and continue to weave, a tapestry that is me. We all know there is no real destination, only the ongoing experiences which blend together, creating the trail. Each step gives a glimpse of what is to come, without allowing me to see the end result. It is exciting. I have a home base that is mine, that gives me a place to rest. This is it. This is where my heart is, no matter where I journey...................

Friday, July 14, 2006

I'm So Tired

ugh. I'm having a rough morning for some reason that I can't put my finger on. I feel like I was up all night! I'm so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open.

Last night I had dinner with a cousin and her husband who were traveling through. We had a good meal, and enjoyed our talk, although the restaurant was SO noisy! Does anyone else notice that these days? Maybe it's my age, but I don't think so, because this has bugged me for a long time. It is hard to find a restaurant in which you can just talk. There is one here in KC that I usually recommend because the food is really good, and it is easy to visit without shouting. We didn't go there since they are from out of town and I didn't want to get them lost. It is easy for locals to find, but not right off the highway for visitors.

We parted fairly early so they could get back to their RV and I home before a storm hit us. It turned out to be not too bad, but I was still glad to be home before it broke loose. I was in bed before midnight and slept through the night. I had a dream about my dad. He was about 30, had a full head of hair, was a cowboy (?) riding a beautiful, big palomino. He was sorta like a Robin Hood character and was hiding out in the woods. I would leave him food hanging on a tree. he rode out on his horse, hopped off and looked around, then sprinted a few yards, snatched the food and dashed back to the horse to ride into the woods. What the heck was that all about?!?! I have to say it was fun seeing my dad again, especially as a young strong man. That is how I'd like to always remember him.

I woke this morning around 5:00 and altho I was tired, I couldn't sleep again. Now I'm walking around as if in a daze. I've tried going back to bed without success in getting back to sleep. sighhh. I feel as if I took something for sleep last night, but I didn't.

On top of this, my phone rang a while ago. It was a collect call from a correctional facility. This is the 3rd I've had since March. These calls have been from different people, at least the last 2 have. Boy, the people who had this # before must have been winners! To my knowledge, I've never known 2 felons, even in the type work I was in, and especially not well enough that they would call me collect.

Well I guess I will quit feeling sorry for myself and try to do something productive. Wish me luck. No, wish me energy! It's gonna be a looooong day!


  1. I would be very wary of those collect calls it could be a scam of some sort. Get a little rest, put your feet up with some nice lemonade or something :)

  2. Maybe those collect calls are from my brother??? He knows I won't take any calls from him while he's in jail. :) I hope you start to feeling better soon. I imagine part of it has to do with the heat. Try to stay cool the best you can.

  3. atti - oh, trust me, I don't accept charges!! That kind of call means it is from an inmate!! I've learned, however, that I have to stay on until I get the right prompts to refuse the call. Otherwise they may turn around and call several times.Once you refuse, that's it.

    c - No, it wasn't his name! I think part of it is heat. I forgot to turn the a/c lower last night as I usually do, so I was restless. I won't forget tonight . . . it's not going to cool of much outside tonight anyway. Did you see we have at least the next 8 days 96+? I HATE IT!!! It isn't as humid today, however, so maybe I should quit bitchin'!!!

  4. Oh, patti (or atti!!!) I forgot to qualify that . . . if I promise to stay in out of the heat, can I put "something" in my lemonade? or make it a margarita? Please, please, please!!! ;-)

  5. hope you found the energy to make it through the day.

    Must be something in the air... as I am having a hard time sleeping too.

    take care

  6. This is odd. I had a comment from st that went to my email for notification, but didn't show up on the blog. She said," Fri, 14 Jul 2006 08:38:49 -0700 (PDT)
    FYI while I was in Odessa, even with the 100 degree temps, I could sit outside after the sun goes down and a light breeze made it ok. I also felt so much better, hardly any aches and pains from my fibro. I don't know if it is the high altitude or what. btw is there a way for windows users to have a spell checker option on this site? Spelling is not my gift and misspelled word can be a distraction to readers.-S"

    S - there is not a spell check for commenters, whether windows or mac.Sorry. We'll just have to be distracted! As if we aren't already!!! As for the weather issues, I know that I am more comfortable in NM. I talked with my dr. on Tues, and he assured me it isn't my imagination. He says it is simply the dry climate that helps relieve the discomforts of fibro. I'm looking forward to it!!

  7. hey lady, i was at starlight tonight seeing doolittle and found myself looking around and hoping i'd run into you. obviously didn't happen, but the prospect was fun.

    anyway, just wanted to check in with you since you were on the brain. i have one more week of workshops out there and then my life returns to a little bit of normal.


  8. cameo, you're back! My tickets are on Thursday night, but I didn't go. Glad you are settling a bit. Tea, sure! I'll email you and we'll set something up for week after next, if I read your schedule right. Great!

  9. I've been reading your blog and have really enjoyed it. Sometimes,you bring a huge grin to my face, and at other times, you wrench tears from my heart.

    Your writings help others. Remember, we are here for you, also!

    the third s

  10. anonymous/the 3rd s - (smiling) It took me a few seconds to realize who you are! I'm glad to hear from you. What I'm enjoying with the blog is the fexibility. It serves as a release for me, at times. But it is also a way to reach others, to continue to touch and hopefully heal as I travel. I may have retired, but the heart never does.

  11. I have to echo what silent one said. For no reason I awoke on Friday feeling like I was climbing out of a bog. I yawned all day. Others at the office were having a frustrating and bad day. It must have been in the stars.

  12. Interesting dream, I always thought of your Dad as a John Wayne type, bigger than life and a presence that filled the room.

  13. st - oh, yes, he did have that, didn't he? I miss him so much.

  14. Ok, I have read through your blog and I agree with anonymous. You make me laugh and then you make me cry! I wish we could have spent more time with you! My hubby was so tired from driving, he was about to give out on me. I would have liked to come over to the house and even stay and help. Alas, it wasn't meant to be.
    My sis is coming up next week; maybe she told you. Looking forward to that.
    I know you are lonely; just be careful, as I know you will. Love ya!

  15. Oh, musicalbee!! I love the name!! Thank you for the kind words. Yes, I talked with her and she is very excited about her trip. You guys have fun. Maybe I'll talk to you while she is there . . . if I can find you!!


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