I'm feeling .... something .... today. The closest think I can say is melancholy, but that's not quite it. Melancholy has a sad component to it, and I'm not really sad. Perhaps it would be better to say my mood is mellow? But mellow indicates a mood that has a sweetness, and that's not quite right either. Introspective, perhaps. Neutrally introspective. That's how I woke this morning, with gentle thoughts going through my mind, reminiscing.
There didn't seem to be any theme or pattern to my thoughts this morning. I've simply had a stream of thoughts wafting through my head, like a movie with unrelated clips strung together. Interestingly, nothing particular even comes to my forethought now, so I can't even tell you what some topics were. Isn't that odd?
I think it is probably a fairly normal thing as one approaches a momentous event, in my case a surgery. I remember having a similar time before a surgery in 1996. But it might be triggered by a birth or a death, leaving behind a long time home in a move, a marriage, or numerous other important events in our lives. I remember some of the same while preparing to leave my home of 30 years in Kansas City, and prior to the weddings of my kids in the 90s, also.
Do you do this? I think most people do. What's the last time you had a mellow, melancholy, or whatever kind of day? Care to share what it was all about?