These are random musings of my life journey, the people, animals, places, and events which have woven, and continue to weave, a tapestry that is me. We all know there is no real destination, only the ongoing experiences which blend together, creating the trail. Each step gives a glimpse of what is to come, without allowing me to see the end result. It is exciting. I have a home base that is mine, that gives me a place to rest. This is it. This is where my heart is, no matter where I journey...................

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Bone tired

Mercy, I'm tired.

Yesterday I was at Allan's shortly after 9:00. He and his friend had almost everything finished. There were a few items to be protected with bubble wrap or shrink wrap, and a couple that were being disassembled. Boy, I was a bit stunned with the reality of it all. I could no longer deny that he is leaving.

I plunged in and began wrapping the pictures and mirrors, and over the next couple hours others trickled in. Around 10:30 I left to drive into Rui. I had a bunch of boxes of materials to be shredded. There was a shredding event in the parking lot of a small shopping center where you could take sensitive materials, give a donation for the CrimeStoppers, and be done with it. Allan figured this was a far better deal that (1) sitting at a home shredder for hours, or (2) paying a commercial company almost $100 for the same thing. He made a generous donation. Everyone but the commercial company came out ahead. Then I drove down the street for a couple buckets of chicken.

The rest of the day was spent loading the truck. He used the same service our family has used several times before. A semi trailer is dropped at the house, and you load it yourself. It is picked up a few days later, and your belongings are delivered at the other end. It saves tons of money. Nice to have it done if you have the money, but this is better than driving a U-Haul yourself, and the price is closer to the U-Haul than the commercial movers. I have to say that avoiding driving the truck yourself, because you're already tired from the packing.

About 4:00 I told Allan goodbye. I didn't cry. My eyes stung, but I managed to concentrate on the positives for him in this. He said he was having pangs of regret looking at the empty house, but he, too, was trying to remember the good things ahead and was reminding himself that he would be back.

I was exhausted and still had a lot ahead of me. I came home and unloaded my truck, showered and dressed to go to the fundraiser for Hospice. I left everything on the concrete step in front of the house, because there was no rain in the forecast. I was pressed for time and decided to take care of it all in the morning.

It was a fun event, a silent auction, a chuck wagon dinner and western show. I had a lot of fun. I was pleasantly surprised at the number of people who came, many of them friends from other parts of my life. That's not unexpected in a small community like this, but I was still happy to see their faces at every turn. The dinner was good, and the show surprisingly entertaining. It was really good music with fun, relaxed banter. I won a couple items at the auction, so I came home with  smile on my face.

That smile was very tired, however. I was exhausted. In fact I was so  spent that when I went to bed I took a couple Tylenol for the aches that were beginning and a muscle relaxer as well. I knew I was going to be hurting when I woke this morning. I hoped, also, that I'd be able to sleep in this morning. In spite of the meds, I did not sleep well at all. I woke every couple hours, tossed and turned, just miserable.

To be honest, when I woke a little after 6:00, I was relieved to be able to stay awake. So much for sleeping in! Sometimes no sleep is better than that fitful "napping." I made a pot of coffee and brought the carafe, my cup and the laptop to bed. I read a few emails, read the Sunday funnies on line and here I am!

Today I need to take care of some plants I brought home from Allan's. The temps are going to drop below freezing tonight and tomorrow night, so I have to bring them in the house, along with my own. I had a spot of rain last night! It wasn't much, but since there has been no moisture since the miserable cold freeze back in February, it is good. There is a chance of showers today and tomorrow, accompanying the cold nights, and I'm hoping for a little reprieve from the dry conditions.

I also have a couple other things to put away. Allan had a delightful drop leaf table with four folding chairs that store under it. It's casual, like a patio set, and I thought it might come in handy at our potlucks. When I got home last night, I watched the news and heard that there was going to be snow in the northern mountains and that it was raining near Ruidoso! Oops! So I went out and carried the table and chairs up to the deck to protect them, just in case. And it is good I did, because as I was carrying the last item up, it began to shower! As I said it was just a scooch of rain, but anything is welcome.

And guess what? A minute ago I noticed the pups on the edge of the bed, looking out the window, and .... it is snowing!! Amazing!

I'm not doing anything to day but taking care of the plants. I'm just done! Lazy movie day ahead!


  1. That makes me sad about Allan. :( I know you have really enjoyed living close to him and I Know you are really going to miss him.

    I need a nap after just reading what you have been up to the last couple of days....yep, I think you deserve a lazy day...or two.

  2. Oh, if only I could take 2 days!! But it sounds good, anyway.

    My lower back is so stiff and achy this morning! I've taken more Tylenol, and I'm planted on the couch.

    Yeah, I miss him already. Funny how you don't know the value of a relationship till it is gone (or more distant).

  3. Yes, Take a nap, if only a power nap still better than nothing!

  4. Tylenol sounds good ~ you've exhausted me just reading about your day! Snow again ... frustrating white stuff!!! I'm about sick of it... it was raining this morning then snowing then raining... Old Man Winter just doesn't want to throw in the towel.

  5. Bob, I'm nearing it right now!

    Mel, maybe if I sleep a while the weather will bet better? Well, OK, I doubt I can sleep that long!

  6. You know you really are one of the busiest ladies I know, to judge by what you say here.
    I treat myself to time off much more often then you do.

    I did spend most of yesterday and a large part of today gardening, though, and that is hard work too.

    It's always sad when someone whose company we enjoy, leaves us. For them there is excitement, for the one who stays behind there's a sudden hole.

  7. Friko, he does have some good things waiting for him, but his heart, like mine, is here. I know he will be fine, but his lot is a mixed one at this time. He is going to have some precious time with his mother, and he is getting a fresh start in many parts of his life. We will both be OK. He will be back for visits, and I may go there, as well. It's just that change is so difficult, you know?

  8. I'm sorry to hear about your step-son's moving away. It's hard. And I hear ya about not knowing the value of something until it's gone, as you know. (Thank you.)

    A long movie day sounds like just the thing...

  9. Yep, we both know about that, don't we? (You're welcome.) And life goes on. :)

  10. I know what you mean. When Stewart moved to Tucson, I missed him terribly. He use to stop by all the time even if it was just for a few minutes. If I needed something done around here, he would either come over or send one of the guys to fix it. I know he is in a better place, but darn, I still miss him.

  11. Sounds like you did too much. That will cause a fit full nights sleep too! I've had many lately on this steroids, God awful pills they are!
    Sorry I haven't been by sooner Lyn, my brain has been mush!
    Love Di ♥

  12. Di, I know I did! It was one of those ties when I knew it was over the top but I had no choice, you know?

    Girl, you gotta get yourself back to normal! This stuff has been hanging on waaaay too long. Hugs sent your way.

  13. Hope you mananged to get some rest today. Sounds like you have been super busy and need a break.

  14. SVB, I have, indeed, been busy, but I've rested a lot today, and I'm feeling much, much better.

  15. I am down to one pill today and thats it! You know how you said that they made you mean? Well my "Neighbor" blocked my driveway twice when I went to use gthe car (Which I shouldn't have to begin with) and I swear I almost got into a fight with her. I told her to go F herself! After all these years of it I guess the pills pushed me over the edge. But in my defense, they could have parked in front of the house, they are just ignorant and didn't feel like walking another four feet. That's the first time I ever had that effect from those pills and I'm glad that they are almost completely out of my system!
    Love Di ♥

  16. I hope you are coping, and even as I write that, I somehow just know that you will. The way you share such important life events is a lesson to us all. Every Blessing

  17. Di, if you need more steroids, ask about having them as an injection. For some reason, that doesn't have the same aggressive effect. And painful or not, I preferred that so I could be myself!!

    Freda, I'm trying to take care of myself. There are just times, you know, when we do what we have to. To be honest, it helps me to know "I still can"!


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