Whew! It has been interesting, confusing, exhausting, exhilarating, fun, informative, and a whole buncha other things! I've learned a lot, but not nearly as much as I'd like. As I've said, I tend to have a problem with wanting it all now. Yep, I want all the knowledge in my head and all the expertise in my hands and all the energy in my body. Now. That's not asking too much, is it? Nahhhh!
Today was really trying for me. I was trying to accomplish some pieces of the job that I have a pretty good idea about, but I kept running into parts and pieces that stopped me short. There were some things such as not being authorized as yet to access parts of the computer system that I needed. An oversight that will be remedied early next week, as the IT guy is coming to set it up for me and get me trained on a few aspects of it. And such as not being able to find certain forms. They are well organized, but my predecessor had a different way of thinking about how to file than I do. Not saying she is wrong, just different and not like I think. And such as trying to find forms that are called on thing on the printed page, but filed under other names in the computer. And such as trying to find files under the name of the patient when all I have is the surviving family member who has a different name. And such as ... well you get it.
It wasn't a bad day, just frustrating because things weren't going as I thought they should. I know full well that the first month or so is going to be spent trying to connect the dots, but knowing it and living it aren't necessarily the same thing! I spent the last couple hours of the day sorting files and drawers, tossing the unnecessary left behind, putting part of it into my system of thinking. I got done just a drop in the bucket of what needs to be done. I'm hoping I'll be able to get the major pieces done next week so my ability to access what I need is improved to a non-hair-pulling level.
In spite of everything, I was productive, and it is beginning to actually make sense in little increments. I've found that with each small thing I do, it helps me understand another one or two of the other pieces that I didn't know before. It's actually .... logical! Sorta!
OK, that's about all you're gonna get outta me tonight. I'm really tired, and my brain wants to rest. And I promise to get back to more fun topics soon. :)