OK, a couple people have noticed and asked, so I'll just make a small note of it. Seems that some of you have noticed I'm not quite my usual self. No, I'm not. I'm dealing with some "stuff." I'm not ready to put it all out there just yet, but I'll try to ease the concerns.
I'm facing a physical challenge and will have surgery in the next couple months. Not anything really serious, but surgery is never something to pooh-pooh. I don't know everything I need to know as yet, to make decisions and put things in order in my head so I can manage it all. I have several medical appointments in the next month, and then I will hopefully know more about what to expect. Till then, I'm just having anticipatory anxiety, and there is no way around that.
And that .... the anxiety .... is what is ruling me right now. I don't, never have, dealt well with the unknown. Most people don't. Gimme sumptin' real, and I'll manage. I think as soon as I have a better handle on what, where, when, how, I can probably resume being myself. I'm actually working on hanging onto every bit of happiness and positive attitude I can, and I will get through this. I've survived much worse! Outside this matter, my life is really very good. I'm happy, just nervous.
Oh, yeah, and it sucks being alone at this particular time. That, also, just is what it is. I've been through other big things alone, and this, too, shall pass! Send me kind thoughts and prayers, if you can spare them.
Thanks for noticing. Thanks for caring.